change

Though its been a cliche to quote that in this world, " nothing is permanent except change", however still I would want in as much as i could to keep some things in constant. I have been in the blogospehere for quite three years to be exact. Yeah, three long years of writing my feelings and experiences about family, people ,friends and of the men who came in my life but then eventually go. But I decided to slowly cut myself off from my old site and start here to become a new me...and that if not stronger, at least wiser. They say, "happiness is a choice" and so in my own way, i wish to choose that happiness for me, regardless of the tests of time. I don't know if hiding my personality here would help.

But this is all I know, and perhaps this is all that I only have- my sense of sanity.

I admit once being so broken by the one I so love. Call it crazy, but looking back to my old site would only remind me of the times when we two used to be there and share our common goals and emotions with. And that was the part in my life that I am now trying to forget. And I guess this is really life...for the part of being human.. yeah...this is it. Lord knows it was real pain. Ang sakit..ang sakit-sakit!( langhiya!epekto na yata 'to ng kapapanuod ko nang mga teleserye!arggg!! yokona!!!;D

Am "bubbly!"

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place

And it starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

And it starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm

And they start in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile baby
Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go

wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while

Pagtatagpo

This early dawn, we went on a "sugat", its otherwise known to be the "pagtatagpo ng inang Maria sa kanyang mahal na anak na ating Tagapagligtas, the Risen Christ. This being traditionally done in the Catholic church. Happy Easter everyone!

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eto ako ngayon. wala lang. gusto kong mag blog pero walang makabuluhang linyang pwede kong ipamahagi na bunga ng akong pagiging OA sa ka-e-emote!haha!meron kasi akong napakinggan na music. reminds me of someone. katxtmate ko sya nun.alala kopa. di ko naman alam kon ano kami. basta masaya kami tuwing nagpapalitan kami ng text msgs.then i remember one time, favorite song daw nya yung bago kolang napakinggan. and it brings back the memory. pero siugro kung di ukol di bubukol. kahit kelan di nagtagpo ang aming landas sa totoong buhay. para lang syang fairy tale. masaya kami.but we're not committed. hanggat naputol yung communication. naubusan ako ng load.hahaha!

ang corny talaga ng buhay!pwede nba sumigaw ng darna??hekk!ang totoo gusto kolang mag blog. at unang pumasok sa utak ko eh yung song. pero matagal na rin yun. tsaka nakalimutan kona nga sya actually. hehe!wala lang. for the record lang. napa-emote lang ako sa music.ganun naman talaga diba kapag feeling mong mag moment!?eh ano ngayon kong habang buhay ako mag emote dito sa site ko, eh blog ko 'to!hehe!sige nanga.sayawan nalang tayo.di kaya ako maloka nito!??haha!pero ako po eto, masayahing tao po ako. kaya lang minsan nawawala sa focus. ayy ewan!pwede backseat nalang muna yang lablyf na yan??;0p

a search

i sat quietly in one corner...
hoping to find serenity within me...
the wind was blowing gently..
kissing me entirely....
i looked around to find familiar faces...
but what i saw was my mere reflection in the shadow...
it felt odd...i was again alone..
it was just yesterday when i heard my heartbeat in a song...
i knew from that moment i was in unexplainable jaunt..
my mind was empty..my shoulder so weary..
seemed like i was almost drowning from feeling the silence around me...
i wanted to shout and say, "hey!~can somebody hear me?"
i just needed to talk to let go of this anxiety.

The road once taken

"...when I was still in my elementary days ( almost two decades had passed) , this used to be our way to school...my first highway to learning the ABC's. "

Starfish

"..because there is beauty in every little thing."

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now i've fin'lly realized that i should love myself even more this time...it's good that we have to wallow in teaRS for all the hurts life brings...but everything ends right on time...nothing is just coincidence...things are really meant to happen..a wake up call if i may say...so that the next day we'd be better individuals.
it's true that there are things in life just too hard to fathom...might be even beyond our logical ways of thinking ...and we end up feeling sorry for ourselves...sumtyms it's hard to imagine that in letting go...a part of us wants to hold on still..might just want to pick up the pride..yah!..our mind is set on the thought that there's gonna be a lot of things to give importance to other than this feeling...but to make a reality check...there's still this soft spot in our heart hoping for the impossible?
...if it is baseless then it's not meant to happen...i mean the hurt...but what if i couldn't just find reason? ahh...there must be a reason...just don't wanna disclosed it on the other side...sumtyms i wish i know what the other person is thinking...yah...i really do wish i've crystal ball, sumthing magical so i can view the other side....maybe it'll give justice to what i'm feeling right now...but why ca'nt i just accept the fact that it's meant to happen...when i need not know why coz it might hurt even more if i'd realize.
..it's not always logical when things happen...the world we live in is not perfect..what more are the inhabitants, right?