outpouring emotion..

It's been quite awhile since I last dropped off thoughts and feelings I was used to sharing on this site. I admit to be still trying to have an open heart and mind so that I could at least weigh and balance things. The choice as to which is way better to do than say things I might only regret in the end.

But then sometimes it's not enough to just stay in one corner and say nothing while some people drop you like a hot potato. And it's sad to realize that I now find myself at the height of trying to gain back what's been taken away from me only because my name is dragged in the issue.

How do I deal with a boss at work whose level of understanding is not as broad as I expected? How do I defend myself when I was already being judged over things I never did in the first place? These are questions cropping up my mind last night as I was trying to give myself a good-night sleep. Questions I know in fact where there are no vague answers. But I was being foolished to have found myself straight to his office as if admitting a mistake I am never guilty of only to avoid trouble and end the issue.

OK, he wins...my boss's immaturity in his old age..that's it. But still I have serious regret. Had I only explained my side fearlessly, I could have been even more relieved. However, I told myself, "oh yeah! i guess this is the prize that i get for trying to avoid trouble but still the trouble came to challenge me."

many gifts, one spirit

Many gifts, one spirit, many songs, one voice
Many reasons, one promise, many questions, one choice.

O, God, we pray for unity, give guidance from above.
In our differences unite us in the circle of your love.

O, God, remind us we are not alone.
Though we move on different pathways, we are walking to your throne.

Help us learn to love each other, show us ways to understand.
We are members of one familly, growing strong by joining hands.

O, God, remind us we are not alone.
Though we move on different pathways, we are walking to your throne.

Take our many ways of working, blend the colors of each soul
into the beauty of a rainbow.
Give us life, Lord, make us whole.

Ondoy and us..

The tragedy brought by typhoon Ondoy reminds me of the story of Noah's Ark in the Bible. And though this dilemma is an awakening for all of us Filipinos, for all our little and big ways of caring less to our environment, still it helps us unite as one family by means of giving support to each other.

As I contemplate on the impact that the situation brought to us, it seems to me that it's about time that we must know as individuals our role and responsibility to our Mother Earth. This is no longer a moment of pointing fingers to one another but its about time to realize that we all are responsible as God's tenants in this planet. And that we have no right to question God why such thing happens but rather look within ourselves and ask what makes it happen. Sometimes and even most often, our tragedies are made out of our vey own follies.

I continue to pray that in this time of nothingness we'll learn to hold on for what are actually the essentials. So help us God.

moving..

for five years of marriage my best friend along with her husband and one child already lives with her parents. just when she thought that their relationship would grow deeper, things are on the other way around. her parents have always been mean to her husband and been treating him badly. i was with mixed emotion when she texted me last night telling me,"nakahanap na kami ng husband ko ng mauupahan..pwede kaba punta dito sa bahay while we're packing up our things para di ako masesermonan ni mama?". i realized that for all those years that she entered into a married life, her parents have not yet accepted the fact that they have already entrusted their only girl to someone she loves.

my friend will be moving on..not that she wanted to escape from the responsibility that until now she thinks she'll always have for her family even when she's already married..but it's time that her parents too would realize that she has already a family of her own to attend to. i can only hope that their moving on will not break the bond she has with her parents. it may be sad but it's a reality that her parents will have to face.

career path

Talking about career plan in this very competitive generation where all seems to be on-the-go, sometimes I wonder if we have considered the possibilities of whether we choose the right career path for us. Some have become practical in their choices like wanting to work abroad after finishing college or getting enough experience. While others are simply content working in their own native land and salaries do not matter much but the working relationship does. I honestly would prefer the latter one. But sometimes when we no longer have the option with what to choose, we just have to grab what's been laid on our hands.

Just this afternoon I got to talk to a college friend. She was telling me that they are in need of advocacy support staff in their office. She told me about the compensation. Salaries in this present time really do matter whether it's a high-paying job or just a minimum paid job. We were also talking about the job she's into. For ten years now she works as an accountant in that company but then still she doesn't seem very satisfied with the salary she gets. We all have preferences, it's just making a wiser decision I guess.

dream of it!

It's overwhelming when I would start to think of driving my dream car. I just couldn't wait for that moment! Sometimes we all deserve a treat from all the hard times of going to our workplace everyday. It pays to own new cars that will compensate a day in our lives filled with workload. Sometimes I imagine driving my family members to their workplace while they are enjoying a good ride early morning in going to work and school. Well, to dream is limitless and so why not dream for something we also deserve to have. Start your search for a great ride via BuyYourCar.co.uk. All consumers here may get the priority to search and enquire about used or new cars and even those that are for lease. I am also excited to share this news to my relatives and friends. As consumers, we too may find great comparison from all the prices being offered. This is to ensure that any informations available may be well presented to their clients. Have your dream come true now through BuyYourCar.co.uk .

how about web hosting?

For years, I have been blogging but I have not considered owning a website of my own. Just recently, friends online have been backing up on me about considering web hosting. However, I heard also some say that it's not that easy. Aside from the maintenance, you will have to look for a web hosting provider that will best meet the service you expect and the less amount that one will have to pay.

Bloggers like me may have been thinking too of the scope that varies in the web hosting services. Many internet service providers may have limitless offers but of course we all want a much detailed yet up-to-date services. Well, we all may not be new technology and computer geniuses but we know so well which web hosting services do serve best and we can differentiate one very good web provider than the rest. I thought of considering a new web page provider that I think will be very beneficial for all who are in search of an internet service provider at its peek.

For almost five years now, I realize that it's about time to give myself a very good break by owning a website of my own. I deserve this break. I have always loved writing online since then and so I realize that it's high time for me to treat my blogging journey right with the best web hosting service provider available online. If you are in one with me in this venture, you too may give your self the same break. Be a blogger at your best with the best web hosting online!:)

it's the climb

A very good friend is going through tough times in her life that sometimes when she would start to unload her pains, I no longer find comforting words to say.

We all have our own share of struggles in life. Some say, trials aren't there to knock us down but there to actually elevate our self confidence and faith in God. While I see no way to comfort a friend, I hope this song will keep her head up high. I wish to let her know that for all these trying times, it's not where we're leading but it's what keep us going along the way.

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

the oddity of SONA

It was my first time to watch and really listened to GMA's SONA. I hate to criticize for no governance is ever prefect. However, as I listened to GMA's eloquent yet boastful speech, I took me moments of reflection. Had I only known what she was talking, I could have been one from the audience adding to the applause. BUT her speech can't ever define why people have to march and rally from time to time only to have her stepped out from the position.

"You do not lead by hitting people over the head - that's assault, not leadership."-Dwight D. Eisenhower