Saturday, November 7, 2009

outpouring emotion..

It's been quite awhile since I last dropped off thoughts and feelings I was used to sharing on this site. I admit to be still trying to have an open heart and mind so that I could at least weigh and balance things. The choice as to which is way better to do than say things I might only regret in the end.

But then sometimes it's not enough to just stay in one corner and say nothing while some people drop you like a hot potato. And it's sad to realize that I now find myself at the height of trying to gain back what's been taken away from me only because my name is dragged in the issue.

How do I deal with a boss at work whose level of understanding is not as broad as I expected? How do I defend myself when I was already being judged over things I never did in the first place? These are questions cropping up my mind last night as I was trying to give myself a good-night sleep. Questions I know in fact where there are no vague answers. But I was being foolished to have found myself straight to his office as if admitting a mistake I am never guilty of only to avoid trouble and end the issue.

OK, he wins...my boss's immaturity in his old age..that's it. But still I have serious regret. Had I only explained my side fearlessly, I could have been even more relieved. However, I told myself, "oh yeah! i guess this is the prize that i get for trying to avoid trouble but still the trouble came to challenge me."

9 comments:

Keith said...

Sadly, we do not know always the most righteous way to proceed... So often we have to ask ourselves what do I have to do in order to find peace.

I like to believe I will know how I will feel when I take an action.

Unfortunately, I have to content myself with striving to be righteous, knowing I will not always feel good as a result.

Thee is a virtue in patience and tenacity. I know the kind of frustration you are disscussing

the donG said...

sad to hear this but i think you can still make a way. hope will always be there but courage is a requirement. it may not be easy, but hope is there.

chiquesan said...

isipin mo na lang sinusubukan ka nya. kung hanggang san ka.
you can find a way. kaya mo yan!:)

Love said...

elow!! just dropped by!!!

Ana said...

Don't worry girl, we all loose time sometimes. Even I was in almost the same situation as you are. Tama si chiquesan, in the Philippines, it's just like that.

Keith said...

Malipayong pasko, Nyl. God bless you my friend...... Write again. Miss you

Keith said...

The Christmas tree I showed you before was made out of legos. These are toys I played with as a child

gilbertlemon said...

Gather roses while you may........................................

neuroticsister said...

I think you should talk to him again. Perhaps make his pea-sized brain understand. You can do it!